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<h1>Tanner Helland Writes: #1</h1>
	This is one of <a href="/writing/kroc_writes">a series of personal letters</a> written to / from
	<a href="/writing/kroc_writes#tanner">Tanner Helland</a> during 2003–2005. These letters cover—in immense
	detail—events in my life during that period, including many unfinished and aspiring designs and creations. As a
	person however, I have changed from the inexperienced, often immature person I was and my skills in programming and
	web-design have changed just as radically.
	These letters have been republished to give deep insight into the way I tick, and to show a lot of background work
	that lead up to the concepts and skills needed to produce this website, which ultimately I failed to do so back

<h2>About the Letter</h2>
	This is where it all begins; Tanner’s first letter to me. There is not much content here, and it won’t be until
	later letters that things will become clear.
	I was running The Lost Alliance at the time (see <a href="/writing/kroc_writes#tgp">the introduction to the
	letters</a> for details), which consisted of a number of people. You will hear
	<a href="/writing/kroc_writes#dragonfyre">DragonFyre</a> (“DF”) mentioned a number of times, and in this
	letter <a href="/writing/kroc_writes#wuta">Wuta</a> and
	<a href="/writing/kroc_writes#intrest">Intrest86</a>—two team members who were ousted from the project for a
	lack of participation; in retrospect I can say that we did that feeling that it was cutting weight but in reality it
	never solved any of the fundamental problems in the project.
	<q>MSP5</q> is short for “Music Sample Pack 5”, Tanner had released to the team a number of music packs
	containing various <abbr>MIDI</abbr> compositions he had made to collect feedback on his work. Before leaving,
	Tanner provided me the last pack of music for me to prepare and to present to the team. The other musician in the
	team DragonFyre wanted to contribute too before the pack was released, and this is why it is mentioned in this
	All of Tanner’s letters were hand written and I have tried to replicate that accurately by maintaining page
	breaks. The pages appear short therefore because of the tall line-height of the lined paper and handwriting compared
	to the narrow lines on a computer. Any hyperlinks are to interlink references for explanation of terms and
	background information.
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	<strong>Hey Hey</strong>  Kroc,
	† <strong>Tanner:</strong> Please forgive my excessive use of emoticons. It took me awhile to fix the many bad grammatical habits I developed from excessive IMing.
	What up, friend? What’s new in England? Anything cool? How’s
	<a href="/writing/kroc_writes#cbuk"><dfn title="ComputerBitsUK">CBUK</dfn></a>? It looked to be coming along
	nicely before I left. You’re getting closer to releasing it, aren’t you? Oh, and I never got to tell you about
	the <a href="/writing/kroc_writes#bda">“Badly Drawn”</a> Map Editor. I did get a chance to briefly check it
	out before I left. Let’s see how much I can remember… (its been a week since I last saw it, heh). First I
	remember fixing a whole bunch of dependencies after loading it. Especially the
	<a href="/writing/kroc_writes#hotmeal">HoTMeaL</a> common DLL. You have it located in some obscure corner of your
	hard drive <samp>:)</samp>† And I didn’t have the most recent version of it (since it wasn’t included in your
	zip) so I just linked it to the last version I had, from the monster e-mail zip. The only problem was that
	“gradient” wasn’t in that one, so I had to comment out all those lines.
	So many hours later, after fixing all that <samp>:)</samp>, I got it to run. From what I remember, the
	<abbr>GUI</abbr> was excellent. Splash screen transparency was especially nice. And where did you get the background
	paper texture? It turned out quite nice too. Object editor looked good. The animator ran well, and I only wish there
	were more animations to look at! Keep me updated on <abbr title="Badly Drawn">BD</abbr>’s progress. I'm curious to
	see how far you are able to get with it.
	† Clint had left <a href="/writing/kroc_writes#tgp"><dfn title="The Gathering Project">TGP</dfn></a> but returned later after pressure from the team. Clint details this personally in <a href="/writing/tgp_year-one">his writeup</a>.
	One favour to ask, while I'm thinking of it. If you get a chance to post <dfn title="Music Sample Pack 5">MSP5</dfn>
	and somehow get the team to comment on it, I'd love a printout of their thoughts — just for curiosity’s sake.
	How is everyone now that <a href="/writing/kroc_writes#clint">Clint</a> is back?† Are they happy to see him, or
	are there mixed feelings? Hopefully he hasn’t said or done anything
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	too crazy since being back. I still have mixed feelings about his return, but hopefully he’s learned some lessons
	since he was last around. He seems to be doing better, but then there are times when he shows flashes of his old,
	… “crazy” self. Like giving up on his RPG just because of a simple collision bug we were able to fix. Guess
	we’ll just have to wait and see what happens.
	Lots of name drops in this paragraph, details about the <a href="/writing/kroc_writes#team">team members</a> are in the reference guide.
	Hear anything from <a href="/writing/kroc_writes#wuta">Wuta</a> or
	<a href="/writing/kroc_writes#intrest">Intrest</a> since they left? I've yet to write Wuta, but hopefully he’s
	working hard. Has <a href="/writing/kroc_writes#dragonfyre"><dfn title="DragonFyre">DF</dfn></a> given you any
	good music yet? Hopefully you’ve already received most of the music you’ll need for the small RPG, since
	<dfn title="DragonFyre">DF</dfn> is pretty slow &amp; methodical about putting out his music. See anything from
	<a href="/writing/kroc_writes#asuka">Asuka</a> since I last checked? Soon enough I'll be a Canadian too—if only
	I could speak French, though. How bout <a href="/writing/kroc_writes#vegeta">Vegeta</a>—gotten some 3D models
	yet? He seemed pretty intent about helping out with the graphics. Maybe he’ll be a great asset after all…
	Tell everybody hi for me. And keep ’em all in line <samp>:)</samp> Especially
	<a href="/writing/kroc_writes#clint">Clint</a>.
	So far things are going well for me at the training center. We have classes probably 7–10 hours a day (up at 6:30,
	to bed at 10:30) with scattered gym classes, meetings, meals, and occasional free time. Not much free time though.
	My only time for letters is on Mondays. I fly out for Canada on April 29<sup>th</sup> too, and maybe after that I'll
	have e-mail. Maybe. Well hopefully you get this because international stamps are expensive <samp>:)</samp> Take
	care and write back,
	<br /><br />
	<em>DemonSpectre / Elder Helland</em>
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